Aj Bahut Gussa Hai....

Yu to ab aisa kuch kehna kisi bachche ke muh se nikle huye bol lagte hai, par ye asal me kisi vyakhyat bachche k to nahi, par humare andar kahin door chupe huye masoom se bachche ke jarur hai. Kabi kabi lagta hai, samajhdar hona bhi jese galat ho, kash hum bachche hi hote, to kam se kam, humari bhawnayein utni hi asli aur masoom hoti.

Aj gussa kyu hai, kyunki kisi ne kch keh diya, kisi se khamakha bahas ho gayi, bus late ho gayi, tiffin achcha nahi tha, teacher ne daata, aur na jane kya kya.... Kuch aisa tha, ki in kaarano ki parchi to jese khoob jyada hi lambi thi, aur rojana kch naya judd jata tha. Aur jitna jaldi gussa hota tha, utne hi jaldi thanda hota tha. Jis dost se khafa hote, usse agle pal hi baat karte aur mana lete. Jo kabi maa-bapu se daat khakar narajgi hoti, wo agle hi pal kuch farmaish ka khayal aatey hi choo-mantar ho jati.

Par aj ka gussa hona kitna badal gaya hai mano. Aj kisi se gussa hota hai, to sabse pehle beech ki ungli dikhate h, usse manana to choddo, shakl dekhne ki iksha nahi karte.... Teacher se kch panga jo ho jaye, to palat k jawab dene me tak nahi chukte, jo koi kch keh de to palat k kehne me to sochne se b kam waqt lagta hai.....Aj sachchi kitna gussa hai... Hai na....

Par, jab vicharon aur humare harkaton ka muaina karo to malum hota hai, ki kitna parivartan ho gaya hai aur kitna banwatipan humare andar, na jane kahan se, sama gaya hai. Kisi se muskura kar milne k peeche tak koi maksad hota hai, mitrata to door ki baat, dushmani bhi kisi sochi samjhi gehri saajish se hoti hai. Kisi ka bura ya bhala, samaj me kuch naya ya koi badlaw, ya samay ki kuch jarurat, har chiz kisi karan se hai. 

Hum jo pana chahte hai, wo yadi na miley to gussa hai, par pados me koi bhuk se marey to, hume kya, koi aur hoga, wo dekhe. Humare bhawnaon ka sab khayal rakhein, par desh ko jo log loot rahey hai, unke prati kya kehte hai hum, CBI hai, supreme court(sarvochya nyayalaya), vagerah hai, wo dekhege..... na janey, kabi dekhega bhi ya nahi, par hume kya, humko to aj apne hi kisi karan par gussa hai...

Ek samay tha, jab kisi vakya ka ek hi matlab hota tha aur koi baat ho to dil se mukurahat nikalti thi, par aj, har vakya me do matlab malum hotey hai, aur dusra wala dimag me rekhankit hokar, chehre par muskurahat ki lakir khichta hai....

Aj khana kharab mila, to khana banane wala par to gussa hai, par aj maa ne kya khaya, puchne ki tak fursat nahi. Kisi ne bura kaha, ta-umr yaad rakhte, par hazaron ne lakhon bhalai ki, uska ek bhi hisab nahi. Ek waqt ki baat thi, jab kisi ke karya ya kriya ko uski nazariye se sahi thehrakar, usko apne paimano se taul kar, apna lete thay. Pa aj to sabse pehle khud ki mahatta ka khayal jyada hota hai, aur kisi anya ke kaarya, humare hisab se hona hi, humare drishtikon ko sahi lagta hai.

To ant me akhir sawal yahi uth raha hai, ki kya humari soch kitni sankuchit ho gayi hai aur gussa hone ka paimana kitna badal gaya hai. Nazariya ka to sampoorna ulat pher ho gaya hai, aur na jane kya-kya aisa hi kuch gaya, jinko shabdon me vyakt karna utna hi kathin lag raha hai. jitna ki kisi ke kahey huye vyanga ko sakaratmak drishtikon ke roop me lena hota hai.

Aj koi bola, ki yadi is duniya se jung-burai-aapsimatbhed khatam karne hai, to kisi antriksh praniyo dwara prithwi par humla karwa do. Aur shayad ye sabse achcha vikalp bhi hai humari soch ke dayre ka utthaan ke liye. Kya khayal hai, hai na sahi baat....!!!

Kehne ko to na jane abi kya kya hai, par is samay ki aur bhi mahatwapurna jaruratein hain, jinhe pura karna shayad apni bhawnaon ko likhne se jyada jaruri hai. Aur na janey, kya likhne ko baitha tha, kya likh diya, sachchi, "Aj bahut gussa hai"........ ;)

Anonymous

Of many entries made so far, dis one seems to go widout theme and it wud be appropriate to name it as anonymous. Well, it happens sometimes, state of mind is unclear and tasks to do in such a state goes out of question. So, what to do then, the best one found, sort out a few favorite tracks, plug in ur ear-piece and enjoy them in best comfortable way. The world goes in one side and slowly we start getting clearing up with things muddling till now, and dis i found one best way of giving time to self.

Another way i found to get in touch with inner self, is scribbling your imaginations. Jot down whatever is going thru and slowly the heart would reveal everything it has kept as treasure in itself.

There's been a girl from my graduation days whom i miss a lot, may be i might have loved her a lot. To be honest, I love her in a way in some special way, "one sided". But there's a bitter truth i know very well, dat she cudn't be mine, n so all what i wish dat, she gets all happiness in her life. I don't complain like, oh why not her only, or something else. May be now as she has moved on and so do have I, it may be just for making me feel what a care and feelings for other can be, and see this world in a more beautiful way. The days seems more enjoying, morning goes afresh and the day, exciting. :)

Keeping these senti thots apart, facing reality, time is do best and leave this part for time being. Everything has happened at ryt time till now, n so wud it happening in future too, and I would meet the right one at right time.

This age's has been quite a lot, Sms's Period, thnks to technology, and it has let to spread all sort of ideas like anything. I mean, there are some very good 1s, some worst, some mindblowing PJ's and the best naughty 1s. :D

1 such says, until you find ryt 1, keep njying wrong 1s. Lolz, this might seem ryt to few, but for me, its good in inbox only. In reality, it doesn't seems right. 

Ahaa, one more thing, the leg pulling acts and time spent wid frnz, is priceless. Its among best moments of life one gets, and shud be respected and celebrated. I like throwing NV jokes too, n mind it, it puts in trouble sometimes, but in company of ur good frnz, ur creativity seems to attain its peak ;).

Ha ha, jokes apart, life's is really beautiful as people say, and living each moments lets to embrace its serenity. Now as formally said, to pen down, i end my talk and share something else some other day.

Em hm, one good thot i heard somedays before, about what is luck. Most of us define in some or the other way, but this was something xtra-ordinary and sharing here wud be worth... 

It goes like this, "Luck - to raise yourself to such a level, dat b4 granting, even god asks, what do u want..."

So, give ur best effort in everything you do, n listen to ur heart... it tells good things and helps to take decisions, apart from continuously beating only.... :D